Something New...

I ignored the Lord my God.  He told me to step out...  And not just out, but off the team.  I was sure I was mistaken... probably because I had gotten caught up in the vision.  Not His vision... but my own.  I was sure of His calling, and unsure of this new direction.  But it was for my good... and His glory.  It was not only for my benefit, but for the benefit of others... of someone else.  I didn't listen.  I fought back.  And He has dealt severely with me... as He should.  As He is entitled to do.  Oh, I praise Him.  A severe mercy.  A tender-loving kindness, nonetheless.  He is my God.  I am His precious child.  He requires a great deal.  Am I going to trust Him?  Yes.  In this, He is pleased.  Oh, how He loves me.  Thank You, loving Father.  Thank You, Jesus, my King.  Forgive me.  Renew my heart.  You are good.  In your name I pray.  Amen.

Not yet...

At this point in time, I am not on the team for the September 2011 Zimbabwe mission.  I'm not sure the story is over, though I don't have a peace about moving forward.  I pray that it will become known.  Is the conflict within me?  Or are we changing course?  Father, help me to see, to know.  Thank you for the love that You've poured out in me, and through others.  You are awesome!