Today...

I'm feeling a little overwhelmed, emotionally. The weird part is that my emotions are running under the surface. I'm not wracked with emotion, crying uncontrollably. I really don't have anything to cry about, yet, and it's possible that I won't have any reason to. I've always sort of made it my policy not to become upset about something that hasn't happened, yet. So. I sit here. Waiting.  I'm waiting until Monday afternoon, when I can have a test done, and then wait some more while an evaluation of the results takes place. While I'm waiting, I'm going to choose to trust God.  The God who made me, and knows me, and who hasn't left my side, and who will walk with me, no matter what. "You keep in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on You, because he trusts in You." (Isaiah 26:3) In the meantime, I'm a little nervous, somewhat frightened, but choosing to rest in the assurance that I don't know the worst, and am hoping for the best possible outcome.  And that's where I find peace.  Not that it's all going to be ok, but that whatever comes, I'm ok.  I'm His. And I really have nothing to fear.